Drops of water involuntarily falls down at the brink of my eyes. What is this weird liquid that tasted a wee salty and sadness? Indeed, I could taste the wretchedness, misery, sorrow, and pain just by the taste of it. And why is it that I can feel my heart being dragged by a tonne of weights with a chain tied across it. Deeper and deeper, till I can't feel anything but a large void of emptiness within me. Is my heart gone? Won't I be able to feel any more horrible emotions anymore? Am I suppose to rejoice in the hole in me? No, there's something else. Flashes of past incidents hit me like paparazzi trying to get photos of Paris Hilton showing her titties in a gay bar, I couldn't open my eyes. It's way too bright and somewhat hurting.
As I slowly lift the upper eyelids, ah, serenity, no more flashes. But shucks, where am I? What is this beautiful pathway I see in front of me? Uniquely shaped yet smooth wonders of pebbles arranged in the most exclusive way I've ever seen, surrounded by gorgeous red and white roses on the edge of the fence. Is this heaven? I supposed not? I mean, no one has ever died of "camera flashes" right?
I decided to just follow the pathway, to wherever it leads me to. The scenery of it, of everything suddenly changes into something I have tried stuffing it in my closet. The guys I have once loved started appearing one by one. Buzzing noises was all I could decipher from them. These guys I have poured all my emotions on, forgetting one most vital thing. The password to my heart. I let em in. I literally invited them in. Forgetting to protect the thing that once occupied the void in me. My heart. Each of them took pieces of my heart with em when they leave. Those sweet kisses and memories together that had meant absolutely zilch to them but the entire world to me. Why are these coming back? No, please no. I certainly can't handle any more pain stacking heartache right now. I hurriedly tried stuffing them back, closing my eyes, singing along to this weird tune that I am not able to make of it, hoping that when I reopen my eyes, the horrors would vanish.
*opens eyes
Ahh, what is this that I see? Nothing. Only complete darkness ahead of me, and the stabbing pain at the hole, the throbbing of my head. Hell no! The chain that tied my heart against the weights is back. Fluid flowing out of the window to my face nonchalantly, like it was meant to be. It hit me. Hard. Is it tears that I have been emitting?
I finally know what this pathway is. The walkway to memory lane. My bestest moment in my life, yet, the worst ones. Just because I became reckless with my precious heart when I am with these guys. I invited them in, literally, to come and make me miserable.
As I slowly lift the upper eyelids, ah, serenity, no more flashes. But shucks, where am I? What is this beautiful pathway I see in front of me? Uniquely shaped yet smooth wonders of pebbles arranged in the most exclusive way I've ever seen, surrounded by gorgeous red and white roses on the edge of the fence. Is this heaven? I supposed not? I mean, no one has ever died of "camera flashes" right?
I decided to just follow the pathway, to wherever it leads me to. The scenery of it, of everything suddenly changes into something I have tried stuffing it in my closet. The guys I have once loved started appearing one by one. Buzzing noises was all I could decipher from them. These guys I have poured all my emotions on, forgetting one most vital thing. The password to my heart. I let em in. I literally invited them in. Forgetting to protect the thing that once occupied the void in me. My heart. Each of them took pieces of my heart with em when they leave. Those sweet kisses and memories together that had meant absolutely zilch to them but the entire world to me. Why are these coming back? No, please no. I certainly can't handle any more pain stacking heartache right now. I hurriedly tried stuffing them back, closing my eyes, singing along to this weird tune that I am not able to make of it, hoping that when I reopen my eyes, the horrors would vanish.
*opens eyes
Ahh, what is this that I see? Nothing. Only complete darkness ahead of me, and the stabbing pain at the hole, the throbbing of my head. Hell no! The chain that tied my heart against the weights is back. Fluid flowing out of the window to my face nonchalantly, like it was meant to be. It hit me. Hard. Is it tears that I have been emitting?
I finally know what this pathway is. The walkway to memory lane. My bestest moment in my life, yet, the worst ones. Just because I became reckless with my precious heart when I am with these guys. I invited them in, literally, to come and make me miserable.